There has been some good to come out of all this though. I had some issues with my mother since I was very young which never managed to get cleared up, and as she is now dead, the issue of forgiveness has come into play. I really don't want to go into personal matters but being able to forgive has been a rather prominent feature of my life since Sunday.
In fact, so much so that I have forgiven many people over the last few days for many years of harm done to me, none more prominent than the Jersey Police, Jersey Judges and the wretched corrupt system they operate to oppress and enslave the people for their own profit and gain.
Indeed, I have realised through my mothers death that nothing can ever really be taken back, only forgiven.
The more we dwell on ugliness, greed and hatred, the worse our own lives become, and the lives of all those around us. I will be part of this reality no longer.