The Great Depression: Why Waking Up is Such a NightmareBy Neil Foster – The Sovereign Independent -
Over the past few years I’ve heard many people talk about the impact on their lives of ‘waking up’ to the real agenda behind the many facets of the geopolitical world we’re living in. It’s also been a regular topic on the alternative media talk shows.
That moment when the penny drops and they realise that everything they’ve ever thought they knew was a lie is a moment of complete devastation on one’s psyche and not an experience to enjoy. Waking up is traumatic and doesn’t end with that first glimpse of the hell being created around you.
It’s a continuous process as you absorb more and more of the facts surrounding all major events which you thought previously were pure accident or cruel twists of fate.
Everyone it seems has a very similar experience of this awakening and depression plays a key role in that, which is at times a struggle to control and an often recurring problem. The fact that it’s recurring is probably due, although not necessarily, to the seemingly oblivious and wilful ignorance of the general public who are still asleep when you try to impart your new found knowledge thus leaving you feeling like an outcast.
Unfortunately, as I’m sure many ‘truthers’ would agree, the time to try to impart knowledge in the hopes of helping your fellow human being wake up, is not when it’s just happened to you. You go on a verbal rampage spilling everything out at breakneck speed with adlibs such as “how can you not see this!” or “how can you not see what I’m telling you is true?” You can clearly see you’re having no effect but you go on.
When this doesn’t work of course, you still have the ridicule to deal with. At mind, not only to shield yourself from abuse and ridicule, but also because there’s no-one out there who understands where you’re coming from.
That’s when the great depression takes hold. This can of course be compounded by the attitudes of those you hold dear, such as family, husbands, wives, girlfriends, boyfriends and even your own children who may ostracise you.
When a partner doesn’t get the message and continues their daily grind of getting up for work, if they have any, breakfast on the run, the rat race through a mass of similar sleeping masses of humanity, 8 hours of drudgery in a job they don’t want to be doing, followed by the rat race back home, dinner and 5 hours of television, it gets very difficult to live with them; in particular the 5 hours of mindless, brainwashing television.
As soon as it goes on you start your tirade of scepticism at every juncture with the news being excruciatingly annoying and you find yourself unable to hold back. This is where the problems really start as your partner tells you to ‘shut up’ or worse and the inevitable arguments ensue….. every day, every night until finally one argument too many causes the breakdown. Such is life you may think and if people break up because of this ‘trivial’ matter then it would have happened anyway. Not necessarily. It’s a recurring theme in the waking up process and something which can’t be just a coincidence.
This breakdown of a relationship makes another chink in your psychological protection barrier and the depression sneaks in under the radar again to take a firm hold. This can take many weeks, months or even years to combat and finally conquer. Many never manage it and tragedy has been known to follow.
Assuming you get through this difficult episode, combing the breakdown of your relationship and all that entails, you finally get to a stage where you start to piece your life back together, but again, this is a long, drawn out process which many never master completely whereby they simply fall back into a lifestyle akin to the one they had prior to waking up. The real tragedy of this is of course that if you’d never woken up in the first place, your blissful ignorance may well have kept you blissfully ignorant with your life and relationship intact.
However, getting through this stage is crucial, with those who push ahead with their own method of recovery from the many crises they’ve experienced in such a short period of time, including the loss of not only a partner but the vast majority, if not all of those people you once called friends. They have also abandoned you to live on the fringes with your ‘fantasies’.
At this point, if you’ve made it thus far, you start to become more selective in who you talk to. You find talking to the ordinary, football fan or celebrity worshipping colleague at work difficult to deal with but you try to humour them as best you can whilst slipping in the odd remark which you hope will generate a response you can expand on. This is usually a futile exercise.
But nevermind, you do find some like-minded people in a group eventually only to find that many of their views, although seemingly similar to your own, may be as diverse as those shared amongst the general public with differences of opinion within such groups ultimately destroying them, in many cases through infiltration by those who are well paid to achieve such aims.
So you again find yourself a lone voice crying in the wilderness and nobody is listening there either. Depression is again an unhappy bedfellow who can creep up on the unsuspecting ‘truther’ taking them back into a dark place where isolation can become the biggest danger to one’s sanity. If it hasn’t happened already, some will seek solace in drink or drugs or some other addiction.
This is a dangerous time when inner strength is needed to pull oneself back from the spectre of complete loneliness and isolation from everyone, including those you’ve managed to maintain some form of close relationship with despite your differences of opinion.
It is possibly at this point you probably take a good hard look at your own life to examine all the facets where you could have done things differently ‘if only you’d known’ what had been going on to tamper with your perceptions of reality and how that would have influenced your past actions. Hindsight is a great notion but it doesn’t change the past. It can however change your future.
Self-analysis is a painful process and can involve some deep soul searching on those aspects of your life and subsequent actions you may or may not have taken in any given situation. You have to admit and accept mistakes were made and hurt caused to people who didn’t deserve it and at some point you have to come to an acceptance that these things can never be reversed and it’s for your conscience to deal with. This again is a difficult process that requires an admission that you’ve been less than noble and honest, not only with others, but also with yourself, at some or other time in your life.
As was mentioned recently by a caller to Alan Watt of www.cuttingthroughthematrix.com, you must change yourself and become that better person you need to be to take the fight forward in any honest fashion. Self-examination can be a humbling event and realisations of your past misdemeanours must be accepted totally to attain a new perspective on your future self. Only then can you act with total integrity moving forward.
Some would say that this is an idealistic or fanciful notion. Perhaps it is but you’ve got to start somewhere. Only then can you live with yourself honestly.
So when does the depression finally let go? I don’t know, perhaps it’s always lingering in the wings to catch you out when you’re at your most vulnerable. I’ve often dropped into it to some degree or other mainly due to the levels of apathy endemic in the general public. This leads you to question whether you’re wasting your time even trying to persuade people to look at the minimal amount of evidence to verify what you’re trying to explain them. This type of depression can express itself in a number of ways, such as frustration, anger or self-doubt or just a general feeling of apathy towards your fellow man or woman. However, this should never stop you trying.
Such feelings are normal although to carry on down that train of thought is ultimately self-destructive in that it takes away some of your own humanity towards people who you may feel are undeserving of your time and effort.
Whether this is the case or not, you shouldn’t let go of the idea that somewhere there are people waiting to hear what you have to say, they just don’t know it yet until you sow that seed in their mind.
You must remember at this time that they are the victims of the global agenda as much as you were prior to your own awakening.
That one person who turns to you and says those words, “you know I knew there was something wrong with that” is why we go through all this. It’s a moment when you feel on top of the world but of course this is tempered by the realisation that you’ve set someone on the same course as you’ve been on with all its inherent dangers.
However, such is life and life is precious. We can’t stop trying to get the word out because we may depress someone or fear depression ourselves because violent death at the hands of a ruling elite will be a worse fate than any form of depression.